Aunt Grief

Anticipatory Grief, whom I like to call Aunt Grief, lingers like a ghost. Long before our loved one has passed on, part of them, an indescribable essense, has disappeared- an ambiguous loss that’s often ridden with guilt. Guilt for a grief we’re not ready for perhaps, because our loved one is still here on this earth….

Hellos & Goodbyes: mom

My mom was diagnosed with MS 10 years ago, around the same time my parents divorced and my childhood home in New Jersey was sold. MS is short for multiple sclerosis, in which myelin is damaged, nerve fiber conduction is faulty  and nerve cell death occurs, resulting in impaired bodily functions, like numbness, trouble walking and cognitive…

Pure-O, it’s not a cereal

Pure O is “a variant of OCD… persons are troubled by sudden thoughts or images of awful things… These thoughts do not involve a compulsion to do anything. In fact, the thought of doing any of these things is repugnant and very upsetting.” I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) 3 years ago when…